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07 December 2012 @ 02:04 am
whatEVER !!!  
i have been in such a BLAH mood today. the HG has gotten a lot worse in the past two weeks, as i've rounded the bend into 15 weeks. i feel accomplished at this point. i've made it through the really scary phase (the whole miscarriage thing--nothing to do with HG, just my own fears) and now i'm feeling twitters and flippies every now and then. i know it's baby alexander (we're calling the baby "baby alexander" until we find out the sex) and i feel excited. despite all the nasty sickness, i really just am so excited to begin another chapter.. and finish one of the books in the series of my life, as i am getting a "final" tube-tying ritual done, and my child-rearing years are officially over.

i am frustrated with my OB. i went to women's services with a positive pregnancy test at 7 weeks. i had my first appointment on november 16th. at that appointment, i stressed that i was constipated, and dizzy, and faint.. i had reported that i fell at school and was deeply worried about walking through my school's icey, slippery, snowy parking lot this winter.. and i felt as though she was basically telling me "your condition isn't serious enough for any kind of special accommodations." no one took my urine, despite me citing my concerns of dehydration. after my pelvic exam, she listened to my heartbeat for about two seconds, and sent me on my way. many of my friends (and me in my first two PGs) had gotten an ultrasound early.. just to check the due date. i figured because my babies are typically born small, that they'd wanna check how the baby is right away. but no. 15 weeks and still not one ultrasound. i'm a little tiffed about it. :\

tomorrow i take my last zofran pill. i called today and requested a refill.. i'm probably going to have to go buy 3-4 pills (13-20$) just to get me through the weekend. i hate to be dependent on a drug during pregnancy.. especially when i feel the way i do about smoking cigarettes and drinking.. i've even cut down on my coffee intake. i am trying so hard to have a healthy, legit pregnancy, but HG doesn't seem to wanna let me.

it's the end of my semester, and it's finals week. i have three exams next week, and three regular tests, four papers to write, and lots of studying. i'm tired now so i'm gonna go to bed!! <3
where i'm at: couchhhh
my mood: tiredtired
background noise: meet the fockers
dirty angelrotting_angel on December 8th, 2012 03:07 am (UTC)
You sure they didn't just listen to your blood flow to the uterus? It was told to me by my doctor that you can't usually -hear- the heart beat that early. I went in the first time at seven weeks and had a next day early ultrasound so they could -view- it, they couldn't even get it abdominally, they had to do the insidey one. And she couldn't get sound just get it on the screen. This last one (at just under twelve weeks) we heard the heart beat with the lil sound machine.

And I am terrified, have stress dreams about slipping and falling this winter >.
the puking preggothepukingpreggo on December 8th, 2012 03:34 am (UTC)
I'm not that early, silly goose! I was 14 weeks when I got the heartbeat, and I heard it.. she just didn't tell me how many BPS it was or anything..

I'm really scared to fall. But I called my insurance provider today and let them now the extent of my illness, they asked my weight, and when I reported that I was currently 10 lbs lighter than my pre-pregnancy weight (which is nearly the 5% of ppw loss that defines HG) in my first two months, the lady sounded pretty surprised and concerned.. when I went on to explain I had severe HG in my previous pregnancy and now, they actually knew what I was talking about and seemed really helpful. So I'm hopeful!
dirty angelrotting_angel on December 8th, 2012 03:55 am (UTC)
I thought you said they did it at seven weeks my bad! I'm glad they arer more hopeful with that part at least! <3
the puking preggothepukingpreggo on December 8th, 2012 04:21 am (UTC)
lol nooo, but i'm definitely insisting on an ultrasound this next time!! <3